~

I'm not even sure if you'll see this...
I come on here in the middle of the night, whenever I'm up, wherever I am... Actually, I'm up most of the time... I'm now crossing over to my sixth day with only 8 hours of sleep all up. I know it's no suprise. I haven't slept in my own bed in over a week now... I've checked this space every night... I suppose it comforts me that I'll always do this, like I have for a few years now. Despite the time, the countries, the places and people that have ebbed away at what I once was... everything I embraced and endured to try and forget... I never did... I never really wanted to.

One thousand, one hundred and eleven wishes ago, someone told me that if I made a wish at night at a certain time it would come true. So I wished for success and happiness for that person every night. Wishing for something I'd never know the outcome of... Ironic how counter-productive my existance was to that wish...

You're fine.
Despite.. all my mistakes... every minute I kept you up.... every second I worried you with my own stupidity... you're fine.
You never did believe me...
You're not pathetic, you're not stupid and yes- you don't need me to do anything.
Maybe oneday you'll see yourself the way I do and always have...

...you'll think back and remember me as a lost little stray that wandered around the streets at night... and laugh...

..oneday =)

it's Amazing

Waking up in your own bed.
The slurry of random cutscenes edging in and out at the back of your head.
The people you probably saw.
The music you must've heard.
The songs you shouldn't have sang.

That random draft you see on blogspot that you probably wrote as soon as you got home last night. Just how coherent your thoughts become after a touch too much of "yea sure. ONE beer. then I'm going home".

That song on the radio. The one you didn't want them to play. The long drive home alone. You remember the feeling. Just like old times...

...And when you read the draft and play the song that came on last night. A quiet moment wisps through your head. It was amazing wasn't it?

Idiot.

Lyang and company

was 6 years ago now.
this is going to suck more later




Actually. You've grown up enough for it not to suck. Besides. You should only be happy for what you did and how everything will later play out.

MOAR DOTS D=

Okay. Less DoTs.

The only way to win is not to play...

But fully knowing the outcome of a game before playing it opens up the opportunity to do some pretty cool shit (take some nice screen shots) and troll opposing players.

And by troll I mean mindfuck Although the two are synonymous with eachother...

Make em squirm, make em cry, make em rage when you die.
Ask em "u mad bro?"
"cause u sound mad..."
Make them rq and relog... mute you and report you.... it doesn't matter... it's not worth the effort in trying to win a lost game.... Just play for "teh lulz" ..

it's your way of protest against
-a gimped Match Making system
-unstable servers
-smurfs and twinks who play just to outclass
-biased mods and devs
-an unresponsive customer rep.
-blindside nerfs and buffs of the most random variety
-unexplained downtimes
-hotfixes and patches that take forever
-hackers and exploiters

... and the one key feature of the game that lets you get away with it all, the single most broken part of the game.... Love has no Banlist.

atleast it's free to play

하지만 마지막으로 할 말은 없어...

오늘은 마지막으로 그 녀를 본다.. .
어때? 설마 슬픈건 아니게치?
No..

가치나 피씨방, 노래방... ㅋ 혹시나 앰티?
재미 있나?
...It's not like that...

알지? 다시는 못 본응거?
I know~

I look forward to it =3
ㅋ 나쁜 놈~ 언제 클거야?

=)

Home is where the hearth is

Or lacking that... where your dog eats.

I'll be home soon.

Here's a reflection for future reference.


... ><"

That person.
죽어도 잊을 수 없어....
...?
Fuck up. =="